Autumn days will fade away

title: fed up
date: Monday, February 18, 2008
time:10:08 PM

"sometimes the person that is the most closest to you, may not be the person u can count on. the only group of people that u can guarantee count on is your family."
-quoted from the best dad in the world

life has its ups and downs. and now, i'm experiencing the down part.
looks can be deceiving. words can be deceiving. but actions may not.
its really true what my dad says.
some people whom i know are not really who i thought they were after all.
have you ever come across anybody who actually LISTENS to you?
ask, how are u feeling the next day after listening to you or your problems?
i have. my family.

people can usually say this, i am a person that can cheer anybody up whenever they are down.
but how do they cheer u up?
by telling jokes? which totally does not help cause u know that ur problems will stay there after laughing out so loudly.
or the other way round? which is by thinking of solutions to solve ur problems and then joke around. that way, u noe how to solve your problems and at the same time be happy that ur problem is over.

so be careful whenever u meet people and especially when they say i am a person that can cheer sad people up.
sometimes, people do not know what they are doing.
and why am i saying this? because some people that i'm close to are like that.
making them look happy but not making the inside happy.
oh whatever,
i'm fed up.

an advise from me,
make the right choice, live your life the way YOU want it to be.
~Hidayah

title: moods.
date: Saturday, February 16, 2008
time:10:12 PM

moods.

my moods' kinda inconsistent these days. ok i know it sounds wrong.
every single day i'm back home late, felt like ripping myself apart.
and theres campcraft. just got to know i'm a reserve.
whatever. i'm useless. i dont care.
but sometimes i'm just happy.
like especially when my friends are around and humour starts to set in.
and sometimes i dont know what i'm doing, what i'm saying.
thing just happen; things just slipped out of my mouth.
and the next thing i know, i cant believe that that just happened.
and i start thinking of bad memories.
it just sucks that way. sucks real bad.
then there comes some love shows on tv. like the notebook.
and i'll just cry my heart out.
haii. why?
my test marks hadnt be that bad these few days as it was last year.
so i'm rather happy but theres still a lot more room for improvement. especially for both my math.
and valentines' day just passed.
as usual, i got chocolates, sweets; the kind of giveaway things. not like those "special presents".
though i got a really funny one from dominique.
guess what izit?
disposable panties.
he put it under my table along with some other peeps inside my class.
he's nuts i know.
LOL.
(sorry dom but its true anyway) haha.
then the next day, i got a box of ferrero rocher from this guy.
cause i did a good deed.((:
lol. didnt expect him to do that.
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!
and he gave me a poem which was nicely written.
how nice!

and now, i want to live my life the way i want it to be.
leading a carefree life.
not exactly carefree, just care about those things like, family, religion, studies.
just being happy.
and i am not going to let campcraft ruin my life.

so thats the way it is.

~noor hidayah hamdan logging off

title: todaytodaytoday!!
date: Wednesday, February 06, 2008
time:7:49 PM

hey bloggybloggyblogblogblog!

i'm a happy girl today! lalala!
firstly, i would like to wish all my friends a very happy lunar new year and great days ahead.
woohoo!
okay noww...
started the day with stomachache! reason: i shitted at the wrong time. suppose to shit this morning but shitted last night.
ok then.
in classs...
had to decorate the class for chinese new year! with recycled materials...
ms yong's great idea.
she was shouting and screaming as usual.
the girls didnt do much.
so we let the guys do it. the result? hmm... no comments.
and yeah!
jeremy said i have an immature face which also means i have a BABY FACE!
thanks for the compliment dude!
woohoo! i'm so young!
the performances was okayy. some was just a bit retarded.
after that, went for a short meeting. no campcraft.
wouldnt make my life better anyway.
so yeahh.
then the chinese new year songs was killing me. it was like bursting my ear drums!
got a call from my friend and i head to my former school.
lalala.
there was, hazirah, naquiya, chloe, bridget and of course, me.
we took a few pictures. and left.
oh how i miss rgps! the school's just getting better after we left.
then we went adam's road to eat!
spent around 1 hour there. chit chat. lots and lots of laughter.
bridget was being bloody horny. and she join malay dance! hahaha!
and chloe says i'm fickle-minded. haha! i take that as a compliment.
went to eat ice cream. and we all went to our separate ways.
gosh. love you guys!
went home. sleep. and bot bot's coming to my house! woohoo!

yesterday.
stayed back after school. got dnt.
suppose to go for revolver dry practice but didnt. no time.
and mr goh was like, "that's a pretty malay girl", to his students.
hahaha!

monday!
woohoo! ponned school!
bleahh. lots of homework that have yet to be completed. didnt wanna hear the naggings.
so thats why i didnt come. lol.
i had quality time with myself though at home.
woohoo! didnt go for campcraft. reason: absent (like duhh...)
didnt wanna see the CI's face anyway.
how i feel towards campcraft? just the same as how i started it.
not a tiny weeny bit of passion for campcraft in me.
ok whateverr.

i'm happy right now.
i dont know why.
so yeahh.
lalala.