hey everyone.

reason as to why i dont fill my blog with posts,
is simply because i cant type down my thoughts.
i just cant. and i dont know why.
i prefer to just say it.
by saying is spontaneous you see.
except that i dont. i'll only do it to myself.
if you get what i mean. which i dont think you do.
haaaa. who cares.

haha! okay.
my apologies.

after much persuasion from a few people, i decided to be nice and update.
and its the last day of the year. so yeahh.
blahblahblah.

okayokay. lets get to the point.

MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION

1) study hard, like very very hard. hardcore studying.
the O's are next year...
2) do my homework . and do it sincerely. and hand it in on time.
3) behave myself in class. ((:
4) prioritise my commitments. study before cca.
5) not to care about people's attitude problems. no matter how much my ass cant stand it.
hehe. mindset on the O's.
6) no more being late for school.
7) jadi seorang anak yang solehah.
8) and kuatkan iman.
9) to eat more ice-cream and chocolates. those makes you happy.

i guess thats about it for now. not anymore that i can think of now.
but i'm sure theres more stuck inside my head just that i cant pluck it out.

i'm doing all of these for my parents. i am never gonna disappoint them ever again.
its very heartbreaking if history repeats itself.

i wonder why. i wonder why.
we are all working hard for what you call, happiness in the future.
what about now? what about today?
wheres your happiness now?
and when the future steps in, you have to work even harder to maintain your status.
to think about it,
where's THE future everyone's talking about?

i dont know.
i dont know what i want to do anymore.
i dont know whats in it for me anymore.
i dont know. i just dont know.

i just have to keep the faith in Allah. and kuatkan ibadah.
Amin. Ya rabball allamin.

About the year, i guess it was fun, rather challenging, and annoying.
the TRIPS!
Australia, Batam, Malaysia.
those are loved!

and those paperwork, like proposals and stuff like that,
no, i hate it.
so i'm really sorry guys for not putting my effort in those.

i guess thats all.
i'll be back and i know it.
See ya soon!

ps. you guys should listen to human, by the killers. the lyrics are very meaningful.

hopeless. useless. pathetic.
thats what they all say.