this is the third time my titles are titleless. hahah. i just cant think of any suitable ones to type in. so i'll just go with this one at the moment. its real early in the morning and i am not suppose to be awake. tomorrow, or today, is gonna be a big day full of house chores and packing as i'll be going off to Malaysia for holiday this coming Sunday. i havent pack anything yet and the house needs to be uber clean before we head off. i'm kinda excited actually although i've been there thousands of times. i'm looking forward to the shopping.(: although i really wish that someday we could go to somewhere further. like Australia, London, Paris, Italy, New Zealand... oh well. budget's tight.

earlier today or maybe yesterday, whatsoever, i accompanied my friends to school to take their N Level results and also to support them. i could see the joy in their faces when they saw how well they did. i'm really proud of them. and that got me thinking and worrying. soon, it'll be my turn to receive my results and i want to have that same or more joy in me when i look at the result slip. i'm nervous and scared. and i DONT wanna screw it up. i WANT to pass with flying colours.

and btw, notice the new blogskin? i like it. i'll stick with this one at the moment till my hands get itchy and change to another one. its the second day, of a new year according to the Islamic calender and boy, its gonna be a big year for me. more life-changing choices to make, more environment to adapt to, and definitely more social activities to go through.

its 4am in the morning and i better be sleeping now.
toodles.

why are you wearing a bib?

its almost 2.30am in the morning and i'm still wide awake and the only one up in the house. havent had the taste of good ice cream for god knows how long and relieved with hagen daaz chocolate ice cream topped with bits of oreo biscuits and semi-sweet chocolate chips about an hour ago. love it. just finished watching The Proposal starring Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds and it was great! i thought it was rather short but still love the few moments here and there.

i was looking through my previous posts and realised that i didnt mention the most important thing ever on the post after 31st December 2008. My older sister gave birth to a beautiful adorable baby girl in June 2009. She's now 6 months old and already knows how to turn herself on the bed. i know its hard to believe, being an auntie at the age of 16. She has my eyes, nose and forehead. haha!

life's been like like that. its either home, campcraft or go out to eat. i need to make full use of my holidays before i get my results in January. i need a temp job, earn some money, spend it and have some fun. but till now, i cant find any. plus i met a "lost" friend lately but yeah it was a good return and we all talked and smiled.

By now, I've learnt the meaning of true friends. those that i can trust, and those that i can keep. those that not only speak nor write, but at the same time, those that act upon it. i've seen true colours revealing itself even at the most menial of times and from there, i knew. i'm not saying i'm perfect in any way, its just a thought, a review, a feeling.

i gotta go and have some sleep. i'll write in again as soon as i know what to write about.

we're just a part of a life that meant nothing, nothing at all, just buried in a bunch of foolishness which always had words but never actions.

but as for me, i miss a good laughter, good fun and good companies. away from all worries and being carefree.

what a day. the adrenaline i had to experience was much more than the abseil of the 52m high cliff. oh well.

we had a sharing session with Jamaican olympic athletes earlier today. and it was great! really. There was, Asafa Powell, Veronica Campbell-Brown and 18 year old Dexter Lee. they looked real cool. so its like, once they came in cameras and lights were shoved to their faces. well i thought it was rather impolite to welcome a guest like that. first of all, the MCs were the ones who get to ask them questions first and then after that, its opened to the floor. There were like Sports School ppl, those from Republic Poly, PE teachers and of course, MEDIACORP.

so once it was opened to the floor, and after a few rounds of Q and A, i have no idea why but the MC came to me and just went, "so what about you? do you have any questions for Dexter?" and just put the mike in front of me. CAN ANYONE IMAGINE HOW I FELT AT THAT POINT OF TIME?! cameras was staring right onto my face, everyone was just waiting for me to reply! i froze, words just cant come out. i so knew it it was gonna happen before that. i just had this feeling. and yeah , my instinct was right. so the MC just walked away after getting a no reply. Really embarassing.

so i just had to redeem myself after what i have done. luckily, like maybe 5 minutes before the end of the session, one the MCs asked if anyone wanted to ask Dexter a question, and yeah I just HAD to raise up my hand. so yeah. he passed the mike to me, i stood up, froze a while while absorbing the higher altitude, and asked him. GAHH. I see flashes everywhere. I couldnt concentrate, my heart was beating real fast, I kinda mumbled through my words. what a stage fright. wasnt wasnt thinking at all. so i had repeat what i had to ask. AHH. hidayah hidayah. but thank goodness, he replied well. well, my question was, "with you being being a champion at such a young age, how do you cope with the fame and all?" yeah that was i was meaning to ask. he replied something like, "its good, i get the attention of more girls with that." something like that. and everyone laughed. i didnt quite listen to his reply coz my recovery from extreme nervousness wasnt that fast.

well i keep telling myself everyone's gonna forget abt it eventually. so after the session we had a tour around the centre and then lunch. thats when we took pictures! with the athletes! yay! this really was a good experience for me and i learnt a lot from them. and yes, it was a great sharing session.

i'll update this post with pictures of the athletes as soon as possible as my friend has yet to upload the pictures.

so yeah. thats about it. peace.

it was all worthwhile. (:

lesson learnt: never do dumb things again Hidayah

started the day feeling upset. got over it and ended the day well.
thanks for today dear friends. cheers!
after what seemed like years of not exercising, i had bad leg cramps after running up and down during Monday's campcraft training. with that i need to take a walk at Botanical Gardens and Mount Faber leading to Hort Park. so who's with me?

oh yeah. i cleaned up my desk. yay.
and i need to get a job to keep myself busy AND to earn some money.
and i need to have fun.

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the past that was long forgiven but never forgotten.
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whats that? a hat?