Autumn days will fade away

title: How does it feel...
date: Thursday, November 15, 2007
time:11:34 AM

How does it feel
When your best friend got herself a boyfriend? What do you think of it?
And then she forgets about you? How do you feel?
She then follows her boyfriend’s footsteps? Like the way he talks, the way he responds to people. How does that feel?
And she seldom listens to you because she listens to her boyfriend more? How does that feel?
And when she says that she cares more about you than her boyfriend but it turns out the other way round? How does that feel?
And when she doesn’t mean whatever she says? How does that feel?
And she starts to run away from you? How does that feel?
And now, you are feeling lonely. How does that feel?
Oh. I feel like crying already.
Think about that people. It really sucks to know that you are in that kind of situation.

My advice to people out there reading this,
Think before you say something and then u mean what u said.
Think because you might not know that your words might hurt other people.
And mean it because when u mean what u said, you won’t forget what u said. And u apply it in the future because you will never forget about it. And meaning your words shows that it comes from the bottom of your heart. And not saying it just for the sake of saying it.

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I don’t mind joining the campcraft competition. Really I don’t mind.
But what I’m irritated about is that the trainings are taking away my holidays.
If they have trainings in November, its already okay.
But December?
I see my family, friends all enjoying their life in this two months. And they all do things without me because of NPCC. And when I say I am going out with my family, they say the reason is not acceptable.
I’m sick. I really am.
Right now, I’m suppose to be going for my training but I’m stuck here at home.
Sick. Unwell.
Holidays are making me stressed up already. How am I going to adapt to next year’s stress?I’m thinking of the worst right now.